It may not be the same as having to worry about being shot by militants but a friend reminded me of the phenomenon of advanced work dread. This is where you hate your job so much that you have to self talk on the way to work to try to get up enough to be able to make it through the day. “If I can just make it to lunch…” or ” I don’t have to meet with anyone today and I can just stay in my office…” and the like. Usually at this point you are actively seeking another position or hoping they will put you out of your misery by letting you go. It is also characterized by stress induced sleeplessness and other gems of negative influence on your life like constant rumination about the job even when you aren’t there. It is a 24/7 cycle of light despair that shouldn’t be possible given how little a job, particularly one you hate, should be able to impact you.
I wonder what the psychology is that underpins this? Not wanting to fail mixed with some form of conscientiousness mixed with concern about finding another gig?